In My Dreams I Hold a Knife

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5.5 X 8.2 X 1.0 inches | 0.68 pounds

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About the Author

Ashley Winstead is an academic turned novelist with a Ph.D. in contemporary American literature. She lives in Houston with her husband, two cats, and beloved wine fridge. You can find her at

As Recommended By The New York Times, Parade Magazine, POPSUGAR, CrimeReads, Electric Literature, The Austin-American Statesman, Motherly, Texas Lifestyle Magazine, Crime By The Book, The Nerd Daily, and more!
"Ashley Winstead's mordant debut novel is the latest entry in the budding subgenre of "dark academia," where the crime narrative takes place on a college campus...At its heart, Winstead's novel examines what it means to covet the lives of others, no matter the cost." -- The New York Times
"Looking for an eerie campus setting? This chilling suspense novel has murder, friendship and defiance when six people return to their college reunion a decade after one of their close friends was murdered." -- Parade
"An engrossing tale of murder, love, and obsession set against the backdrop of an elite southern university. Delve into the dark secrets and ever-shifting allegiances of the East...This page-turning debut suspense novel is perfect for fans of Pretty Little Liars and J.T. Ellison's Good Girls Lie." -- Crime By The Book
"A twisty, dark puzzle...Fans of books such as The Girl on the Train and Gone Girl will find this book captivating, as will anyone who enjoys being led down a winding, frightening path. Highly recommended." -- New York Journal of Books
"An addictive and entertaining thriller." -- Texas Lifestyle Magazine
"A college reunion brings together a group of friends once shattered by a vicious crime in this thrilling debut, reminiscent of Cruel Intentions, Heathers, and, of course, the Secret History." -- CrimeReads
"[A] captivating debut...Winstead does an expert job keeping the reader guessing whodunit. Suspense fans will eagerly await her next." -- Publishers Weekly
"Packed with intrigue, scandal, and enough twists and turns to match Donna Tartt's The Secret History, this is a solid psychological-thriller debut." -- Booklist
"Fans of The Secret History, Ruth Ware, and Andrea Bartz will devour this dark academic thriller with an addictive locked-room mystery at its core. Ten years after an unsolved campus murder, the victim's best friends reunite, knowing one might be a monster--but is anyone innocent? Over the course of a single shocking night, Ashley Winstead peels back lie after lie, exposing the poisoned roots of ambition, friendship, and belonging itself. An astonishingly sure-footed debut, In My Dreams I Hold a Knife is the definition of compulsive reading. The last page will give you nightmares." -- Amy Gentry, bestselling author of Good as Gone, Last Woman Standing, and Bad Habits
"Nostalgic and sinister, In My Dreams I Hold a Knife whisks the reader back to college. Glory days, unbreakable friendships, all-night parties and a belief that the best in life is ahead of you. But ten years after the murder of one of the East House Seven, the unbreakable bonds may be hiding fractured secrets of a group bound not by loyalty but by fear. Twisty and compulsively readable, In My Dreams I Hold a Knife will have you turning pages late into the night, not just to figure out who murdered beloved Heather Shelby, but to see whether friendships forged under fire can ever be resurrected again." -- Julie Clark, New York Times bestselling author of The Last Flight
"Deeply drawn characters and masterful storytelling come together to create an addictive and riveting psychological thriller. Put this one at the very top of your 2021 reading list." -- Liv Constantine, internationally bestselling author of The Last Mrs. Parrish
"Tense, twisty and packed with shocks, Ashley Winstead's assured debut dares to ask how much we can trust those we know best--including ourselves. A terrific read!" -- Riley Sager, New York Times bestselling author of Survive The Night
"An unsolved murder, dark secrets and dysfunctional college days, all wrapped up in a twisty plot that will keep you flipping pages." -- Darby Kane, #1 internationally bestselling author of Pretty Little Wife
"With its compelling puzzlebox structure and delightfully ruthless cast of characters, this twisty dark academia thriller will have you flipping pages like you're pulling an all-nighter to cram for a final. In My Dreams I Hold a Knife is required reading for fans of Donna Tartt's The Secret History and Amy Gentry's Bad Habits." -- Layne Fargo, author of They Never Learn