I'm Not Supposed to Be in the Dark

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Henry Holt & Company
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5.4 X 8.2 X 1.4 inches | 1.0 pounds

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About the Author

Riss M. Neilson is a Magna Cum Laude graduate of the Rhode Island College, where she won the English department's Jean Garrigue Award, which was judged by novelist, Nick White. She is from Providence and lives for the city's art and culture scene. When she's not writing, she's watching anime or playing video games with her two children. She is the author of Deep in Providence.


"In her mesmerizing and atmospheric second book, Riss M. Neilson blends themes of family and love with an undercurrent of the supernatural to create a story that is both vivid and beautifully told." --Lyndall Clipstone, author of The World at the Lake's Edge duology & Unholy Terrors

"Stirring, raw, and beautiful, like a dream that stays with you all day, I'm Not Supposed to Be in the Dark will haunt you long after the conclusion. I'm Not Supposed to Be in the Dark is about the power of magic, love, and feeling seen in the face of tragedy." --Mads Vericker, co-owner, Heartleaf Books

"The love story that blossoms. . .is one that lights a fire on the page and will keep readers wanting a happy ending for all. Aria is of Cape Verdean and Filipino heritage. A gorgeously written, supernatural fantasy that deserves a place in secondary libraries where romance, feelings, and magic are appreciated by teens." --School Library Journal, Starred Review

"This dreamy and ethereal story combines mystery and romance with the paranormal world of magic and spirits. It's atmospheric, evocative, and just the right amount of chilling. . .Lushly written and full of emotion." --Kirkus Reviews

"The rekindling of Aria and Derek's friendship, and their budding romance, is vibrantly depicted against haunting descriptions of ghosts and mortality, making for an intriguing juxtaposition of life and death. Through Aria's sarcastic first-person narration--interwoven with her illuminating journal entries and eerie dream sequences--and a vivid portrayal of Providence, R.I., Nielsen spins a slow-burn paranormal mystery that examines grief, damaging and healing relationships, and complicated mixed-race family dynamics." --Publishers Weekly

Praise for Deep in Providence:

Finalist for the 2022 New England Book Award
A Buzzfeed New LGBTQA+ YA Novels You Need This Spring Selection

"A magical debut novel from a writer to watch." --Emily M. Danforth, national bestselling and award-winning author of The Miseducation of Cameron Post

"Magic runs like a glittering thread through this densely woven tale of friendship, grief, and identity." --Melissa Albert, New York Times-bestselling author of the Hazel Wood series and Our Crooked Hearts

"A spellbinding tale of friendship and grief told with startling tenderness and emotional truth." --Ryan Douglass, New York Times-bestselling author of The Taking of Jake Livingston

"Enthralling, magical, and haunting--a beautifully written story of family and friendship, loss and love." --Sue Lynn Tan, bestselling author of Daughter of the Moon Goddess

"Deep in Providence will have you mesmerized from the first page." --Goldy Moldavsky, New York Times-bestselling author of The Mary Shelley Club

Riveting, deeply moving, and full of heart." --Kirkus Reviews