Millie has decided it's time to take control over the situation regarding her virginity, or lack thereof. Determined to regain some semblance of balance after a year of post-rape trauma, she finds a kindred spirit-Luke-who is dealing with a loss of his own. Off the hook from living up to impossible expectations, she chooses to reinvent herself through her sexuality and a series of relationship failures.
Millie is also the sole Asian adoptee in a large and bustling white family whose struggles are plenty. Severe anorexia and family embezzlement allow her own less tangible issues to be easily overlooked. Emptied of the life she thought she was meant to lead, dive with her through the fractures between innocence and immorality.
'It Wasn't Love' exposes a controversial self-empowerment in a society of floundering youth. It reveals the shame often coveted too closely and the truths that just can't be changed. Through the voice of a girl on the verge of her will, experience the awkwardness of trying to cope with suicide and self-preservation. Serve as witness to the tumultuous path she must take to seek inner peace and, at last, love.
REVIEWS "In It Wasn't Love, we ride Korean-American adoptee and brutal rape survivor Millie Vaniti's interior life through late adolescence and early adulthood as she pilots a coming-of-age shaken by shame and a longing to be fully accepted and loved. Millie is remarkably relatable, and author JS Lee manages to tackle subject matter that could easily be overwrought or hackneyed quite poignantly by giving it to us straight. No romanticizing. No aplomb. Just one of the most honest portrayals of young sexuality and identity that you're likely to find. This is more than non-fiction. This is true." -Jade Sylvan, author of Kissing Oscar Wilde, Ten, and more
"Told in a relatable, honest voice that doesn't shy away from life's worst realities, JS Lee's IT WASN'T LOVE is a book about trauma and resilience and independence and life." -Matthew Salessis, author of I'm Not Saying, I'm Just Saying, The Last Repatriate, and more
At 6 months old, JS LEE was adopted from South Korea into an Irish-Italian American family in the suburbs of Boston, MA, that grew to include six siblings-all of which were biological to her adoptive parents. Raised in an all white family in a predominantly white community, identity was always an internal struggle. She battled and disguised identity and abandonment issues throughout most of her life, while coping with the trauma in which this literary non-fiction book is about. JS LEE also works as a professional digital, print, and mixed media designer. She's written, sang, played, and recorded on six albums. She has three finished novels that she might publish in the near future. And in her spare time, she enjoys nature, painting, taking photos, making vegan food and products, and enjoying animals. She currently resides in the Bay Area of California with her husband and two cats.