In the Water They Can't See You Cry: A Memoir

Amanda Beard (Author) Rebecca Paley (Author)


In her New York Times bestselling memoir, international swimming star Amanda Beard reveals the truth about coming of age in the Olympic spotlight, the demons she battled along the way, and the newfound happiness that proved to be her greatest victory.


At the tender age of fourteen, Amanda Beard walked onto the pool deck at the Atlanta Olympics carrying her teddy bear, Harold, and left with two silvers and a gold medal. She competed in three more Olympic games, winning a total of seven medals, and enjoyed a lucrative modeling career on the side.

Yet despite her astonishing career and sex-symbol status, Amanda felt unworthy of all her success. Unaware that she was suffering from clinical depression, she hid the pain beneath a megawatt smile. In her late teens and twenties, she became bulimic, abused drugs and alcohol, and started cutting herself.

Her low self-esteem led to toxic relationships with high-profile men in the sports world. No one, not even her own parents and friends, knew about the turmoil she was going through. In these pages, she speaks frankly about her struggles with depression, the pressures to be thin, and the unhealthy relationships she confused for love. In the Water They Can't See You Cry is a raw, compelling story of a woman who gained the strength to live as bravely out of the water as she did in it.

Product Details

Gallery Books
Publish Date
April 16, 2013
6.1 X 0.7 X 9.1 inches | 0.66 pounds
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About the Author

Amanda Beard is a seven-time Olympic medalist. She lives in Tucson, Arizona, with her husband, the photographer Sacha Brown, and her son, Blaise.
Rebecca Paley is the coauthor of several books, including The Body Book for Boys, with Jonathan Mar.


"Bold and candid . . . [Beard's] remarkable story, courageous resilience, and honest self-assessment make this an inspiring read." --Publishers Weekly
"An honest story of a woman who grew up too quickly, the world on her shoulders and water at her feet." --Newsday
"The stories of her battles with cutting and bulimia serve to inspire rather than rebuff. Engaging on many levels, this memoir resonates with readers by addressing real-life issues, not just those facing Olympic athletes." --Library Journal